Now that I have gotten older (without growing up), I spent a lot of my time surpressing the performer in me in lieu of a career in Accounting. Talk about a career that has the least amount of performance value? Accountants, as a rule, are pretty boring people. Although the accounting profession has been good to me, it has bored me to tears. So, I found an outlet. The reason why it took me to the age of 40 is because I was making money to own a house in a decent neighborhood for the family. Does this qualify as a crisis? I like to think it makes me a responsible adult. How grown up does that sound? Thank you very much. Maybe that nine year old was wrong about her Dad. She is such a poo poo head.
To me, a mid life crisis is when you buy the red sports car, or a motorcycle. Both too ridiculous and dangerous for me. Why would anyone want to do somehting so silly. I would much rather perform in front of a room full of total strangers and hope they like me.
If I wanted to be really honest with myself, I would admit that the only reason I am so obsessed with following my passion is because every day, I am closer to death. This doesn't scare me as much as it makes me angry. I just want more time. I realized this mathematical equation when I hit 40. Now, I am 51. The last 11 years flew. The next 11 will probably go even faster. I approach my dream like I am running out of time.